Locked Outside While Pregnant, She Heard the Doctor’s Warning-olive

The click of the balcony lock was so small that I almost missed it.

For one second, I stood with my hands full of cold soda bottles and waited for Paola to slide the door open again.

I thought she had made a mistake.

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I thought she would see my face through the glass, roll her eyes the way she always did, and let me back into my own apartment.

Instead, my sister-in-law stood in the warm kitchen with her arms folded.

She looked at my stomach first.

Then she looked at my face.

“Maybe a little suffering will toughen you up,” she said through the glass.

I was six months pregnant.

More exactly, I was twenty-eight weeks along, tired in that heavy, deep-bone way that makes every chair look like mercy.

That Thanksgiving weekend, Alejandro’s family had come to our apartment because his mother’s kitchen was being renovated. I had cooked most of the meal because I wanted the day to feel easy, even though my back hurt and my ankles had become round little betrayals by noon.

I had made turkey, rice, roasted vegetables, flan, and enough coffee to keep the whole family awake until Christmas.

Paola arrived late and looked around like she had caught me pretending.

“Wow,” she said, dropping her purse on the counter. “You actually managed to stand long enough to make a meal.”

Dona Victoria gave her a look, but not the kind that stopped her.

Alejandro squeezed my shoulder and whispered, “Ignore her.”

I had heard that sentence so many times it had started to feel like part of the family wallpaper.

Ignore her.

That’s just Paola.

She doesn’t mean it like that.

But Paola always meant it.

She meant it when she corrected the way I seasoned food.

She meant it when she told Alejandro that pregnancy had made me lazy.

She meant it when she said women in their family did not act helpless just because they were carrying a baby.

After dinner, Alejandro and his father took the trash downstairs. Dona Victoria went to the living room to look for her sweater. Music played softly from the speaker near the window, and the kitchen was crowded with dirty plates.

I was stacking them slowly, one hand on my lower back, when Paola came in behind me.

“You missed a spot,” she said, pointing at the stove.

“I’ll get it,” I said.

“You know, pregnancy is not a disability.”

I put down the plate in my hand.

“I know,” I said. “I’m just tired.”

She laughed under her breath.

“Tired. You’ve been tired for months.”

I could feel the old urge to defend myself rising up, but I swallowed it.

I had learned that arguing with Paola only fed her.

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