The Newborn Beneath the Desert Soil and Dustwater’s Unanswered Question-felicia

Tom Rickett stood in the desert and watched another man tear open the grave he had helped make.

The wind moved dry and hot across the hard ground, carrying the scrape of fingers through soil and the nervous creak of saddle leather from the riders waiting several yards away.

Nahossi did not look back at them.

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He stayed on his knees beside the shallow pit and dug with both hands.

His fingers were already scraped and dirty, but he kept pulling away the loose earth as though the only thing that mattered in the world was what had been buried beneath it.

Tom could not make himself step closer.

He could not make himself leave either.

First, Nahossi uncovered a patch of dark hair.

Then a tiny forehead appeared beneath the dirt.

Then a face, streaked with dust, the mouth opening weakly as the newborn struggled for air.

The baby was alive.

The truth of that landed differently than Tom had expected.

For three months, he had tried to reduce the child to a problem with an answer.

He had told himself the newborn was proof of his humiliation.

He had told himself the drought had turned every decision into a desperate one.

He had told himself Dustwater needed relief, his family needed protection, and his own name needed to survive what Mary Ellen had done.

But a living baby did not look like an answer.

She looked small.

She looked frightened.

She looked like someone had placed the weight of an entire town’s fear on shoulders that could barely lift from the soil.

Three months earlier, Tom had walked into the church storage room expecting to find a sack of flour Mary Ellen said had been set aside for their family.

Instead, he found Mary Ellen pressed against the wall.

Reverend Gaines stood too close to her, one hand tangled in her hair.

Both of them turned toward the doorway gasping as though they had been pulled underwater and had suddenly found air.

Tom remembered the stillness that followed.

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